Devotional

James 3:17 describes godly wisdom as follows: "But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy. (NASB)"

1 John 4:1 tells us how to know if we are sensing, seeing or hearing a counterfeit, false prophet or ungodly spirit in someone who is interacting with us. "Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world."

In a previous devotional, I spoke about the importance of boundaries and trust. Understanding and applying these scriptures can help us to rest assured about recognizing  wisdom and its counterfeit. We know, the father of lies twists the truth anyway he can to establish confusion and doubt within us. He is hoping to throw us off the path of knowing what is true and right and real and of the one and only God. He is hoping to deliver a wounding word before we can even recognize the spirit with which someone approaches and speaks to us.

Therefore, it is good to develop the gift of discerning the truth. For those of us raised in unhealthy environments where the truth was frequently "bent," it may be difficult to learn and listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit within us. However, that is the only way we will begin to know what we know beyond a shadow of a doubt, because the Holy Spirit is speaking within us. That is how we can verify that someone approaches us in an ungodly manner and with ungodly wisdom. 

It is so easy to be caught off guard, if we have not put on our Godly armor for the day. We will talk more about that in a following devotional. For now, let us be so very thankful that we have a loving God. El Roi, God who sees us, knows what we need to learn and sometimes allows the devil to be our teacher. If that happens, it is important to remember that God uses for good what satan meant to be for evil in our lives. These may be hard lessons, but it will be more difficult in the future for such an ungodly and unwise spirit to approach us without our knowing it. 

Devotional

Betrayal. Judgment. Abandonment. Slander. Holier-than-thou. Have you ever experienced these attitudes and behaviors from others? When it is from someone you did not feel close to or befriended by, it is easy to blow it off and think nothing of it. But what about when a friend, someone you enjoyed fellowship with, someone you trusted does this? It is truly devastating. David, Job and Jesus Christ all experienced this very thing. See Psalm 55:12-14; Job 19:5, 19; Luke 22:48.


Members of their inner circle hurt them. It might have been easier to accept from an enemy, but to be blind-sided by someone you thought was a friend? We read in Psalm 55:12-14: For it is not an enemy who reproaches me,Then I could bear it; Nor is it one who hates me who has exalted himself against me, Then I could hide myself from him. But it is you, a man my equal, My companion and my familiar friend. We who had sweet fellowship together, Walked in the house of God in the throng. (NASB)


Were there signs that should have warned me of this person's heart? What did our relationship really consist of? Was it a give-give or give-take type of friendship? Were we on equal ground? How often did you hear the other person's side of things and not share much at all about yourself, but just enough to be deeply hurt? There may have been red flags that this was an unhealthy relationship, whether with a Christian or non-Christian. 


Some other good questions to ask are: Did I view them as some kind of authority about something important to me? Did I view them as a father, mother, brother or sister figure because of some weakness in me? Did I pretend not to notice when I heard the cruel words, attitudes and tone of voice they used when talking to close members of their own family? Why did I pretend it did not really hurt when they were unreasonable with me? Why did I think anything I heard out of line was rare, not something that would affect me at some point? Why did I listen to all of that gossip about people I don't even know?


Unhealthy relationships are as seductive as Satan himself and we must have healthy boundaries while still being transparent to a close circle of Christian friends for accountability purposes. How do we do this? With God's grace and using the gray matter he gave us. We can ask God to make it clear to us when entering into relationships of any type if they are healthy for us. We can ask Him to reveal to us just how trustworthy someone might be. 


When teaching a class on boundaries to women in crises, I tell them it is okay to initially keep our boundaries farther away from us. They are not immovable walls. Boundaries can be moved closer in toward us as we take one opportunity at a time to know if someone is trustworthy. We do not have to automatically trust someone with our whole life story, because others do, or because they attend our church. It is best to see if someone is trustworthy about something small, before affording them more trust. It is okay to take it slow and easy. This is also wise, when dealing with problematic issues about trust and feeling safe and confident around others. 


The bottom line? Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7 (NASB)

Devotional

Forgiveness

We often want someone to blame for things that occur in our lives. For some there are too many people who can correctly be blamed for being irresponsible and downright mean. For others, they blame indiscriminately and fail to look in the mirror and point the finger where it is appropriate. This applies to Christians as well as non-Christians.

Whether we are victims of our own or others' sins, our Lord addressed the need to forgive in Matthew 18:21-22. "Then Peter came and said to Him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven."

No matter the origins or deliverers of our pain, when considering the awesome responsibility we have to forgive, it seems too much to wrap our brains, arms or hearts around. And yet, we are called upon to do this very thing. We cannot possibly do it by ourselves.

In 1 Corinthians 10:13 we read "No temptation has overtaken you, but such as is common to man; and God is faithful who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, that you may be able to endure it."

When we cannot do it by ourselves, we must do it through Him. Our Savior died for this very reason -- to forgive us all. Can you imagine Him forgiving every human through all of time seventy times seven? And we struggle to forgive fewer people in our lives and sometimes those in generations past. Jesus is our answer. He is the way through, the escape for us. And yet, I cannot help but wonder when I hear people analyzing and intellectualizing Jesus' death on the cross, how could he have died from any deeper pain than a heart broken  over and over again on our behalf. That is why He came to earth and that is why we must forgive, no matter how difficult it may seem

February Greetings

Please accept my apologies for being out of touch for the last four weeks. I really do have more than one good  reason. Truly, they are all terrible, but I believe they are acceptable. My husband was in the VA hospital for two weeks and discharged the same day I was admitted for lumbar decompression and fusion surgery. I am wearing a back brace and I am told a long recovery period is in store. I have to rest for a couple of days after Sunday a.m. church and p.m. Bible study. I have a tendency to overdo when I should rest more. Please pray that I'll internalize these lessons sooner, rather than later.

Then that buggar that searches the earth to seek, kill and destroy tried to kick us even harder and more while we were down. Thank God, I have a Godly man for a husband and we have many fine Christian friends who have enveloped us in their loving care. We are on the mend and I am back on line again. Thank you for your continued friendship, love and support. I have missed our communications.

Please see today's devotional.

Cancer Survivorship Continued

Thursday, August 21, 2009, was the date of my surgery. I had settled things enough in my mind to be very clear that this was going to be okay. The Lord would carry me and walk me through the whole experience. We would make it to the other side. Rick and I arrived at the surgery waiting room early. I was amazed to watch as many of our friends and family showed up. My mom and dad from Hot Springs were driven to the hospital by friends from their church. Rick's mom and sister were there, as well as a sweet neighbor and friend. Two dear Christian friends from our small Bible study groups were there, also. I know there were more, but my mind remains fuzzy on a lot of things even two years later. Finally, they called me back so they could prep me. I knew some powerful praying was going on among that group of supporters and was extremely grateful for their caring.

Gratefully, I do not remember anything about the surgery, but I remember waking up in a hospital room and moaning with pain, real serious pain. A morphine pump was set up so that I could medicate myself as needed. That is a whole other story in itself. The morphine made me feel and behave a little strangely. I would wake myself up with my hands tediously arranging invisible items in mid-air. I was not seeing or hearing anything weird. I just had the urge to do this over and over again for some reason. I was embarrassed when I did this one time and realized a friend was sitting with me for a while to give Rick a break. She never laughed at me or said a negative word. She just sat quietly while I slept off and on.

Eventually, I noticed there were people at different times seated along the wall to the right of my bed and in front of me at the foot of the bed. Some of the same folks I had seen earlier and even more. Two dear girlfriends visited me from another church we had previously attended. All of these folks were Spirit-power-filled people whom I dearly love. I remember being told of another Bible study friend from our church who was being treated for cancer at the same time elsewhere in the same hospital. Another elderly lady who belonged to the grandmothers' prayer group of our church was in the room across the hall from me. Her husband dropped in to visit me at some time. I was grateful for them all. The pastor from my parents' church in Hot Springs came to visit me and I was so impressed. I have always loved him and just loved him more for driving so far to check on me and wish me well. One of the hospital chaplains visited. He had known my brother when he worked in pastoral care at the hospital many years before.

Eventually, I learned that a very large incision had been made across my tummy, and I did have a colostomy, which I have to admit now was pretty overwhelming to me.  But that was not immediately apparent, since nurses took care of cleaning up everything and I was in and out of sleep. The gynecological oncologist who  also performed the surgery, introduced us to a doctor whom he recommended for chemotherapy. It would need to begin within weeks of my release from the hospital. I had no particular concerns or feelings about any of this. I just accepted it. What else was there for me to do?

Poetry Page

The Secret Place

There is a place I’ll share with you,

because you are so dear.

To know of it could see you through

your life’s greatest fears.

Only one path is the Way you see. 

Your heart’s the secret door.

Each step to God’s Truth is the key – 

I want to tell you more.

Your intellect can block your way, 

because you’re sure you know

all the right things to do and say, 

the right way you should go.

Forget what you’ve been taught is right

and each “Yes, but” you think.

Don’t limit faith to what’s in sight. 

child-like hope is the link

to all your inner self knows of Good 

treasures buried there.

Like life engraved on time-aged wood, 

a Master Artist’s dare,

as part and whole from all of time, 

each beginning to end.

from very basic to sublime, 

this Answer is my Friend,

pure, innocent and silent thought

as God’s love manifests

the Highest Good His Grace wrought, 

all motives laid to rest.

Where virtue knows no compromise, 

faith’s strength will demonstrate

our beauty in our Father’s eyes 

with wisdom that will wait

for us to image His own Son

in spirit, word and deed.

Reformed, our new life’s just begun 

through joy and peace conceived.

Like a caterpillar, my dear, 

a growing butterfly,

you’ll shed that cocoon of fear

so you can freely soar on high.

When you leave this secret place

transformed for all of time,

the radiant look upon your face

will envision the Great I Am.

Happy New Year Devotional

First. Alpha. One. Alef. Beginning. The Word.  

A New Year represents so many things for us: 

a fresh start, goals and resolutions, new outlook, renewed hope, good wishes for all. 

However, we bring our same old self into this new year. So, how can we hope to be any different? How can we believe something different will happen this year from what has happened in the past? The difference is not in us. It is in who He, our Savior, was, is and always will be. He said, "I am the Way, the Truth and the Life." In other words, our best intentions are fodder for self deprecation if we are not focused on surrendering ourselves to the will of our Lord. So, it is not my way, my truth or my life, but Him in my life.

Dear Father, Thank you for bringing me to this new year. Thank you for loving me enough to bring me to this time in my life and in all of history. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your creation. I surrender myself and my time here and all of my intentions to your will for this day and for this new year. I pray that I will become less and you will become more in my life, Immanuel. Please show me how to grow still, listen and obey. Please guide me in studying, understanding and living your Word. Adonai, please make me a willing instrument, a co-creator with you and for you to write the words and sing the songs that only my soul could write and sing. I praise you, Lord, and thank you for all that you are. In the name of Jesus of Nazareth, I pray, and by the power of your Holy Spirit. Amen.